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06.10.2000, Vrindavan dham
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That day Nanna was speaking about ‘meditation on the formless’.
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Meditation is nothing but constantly being in awareness of the fact the all-pervading Mother is always with me, never leaving me even for a moment. Mother is constantly with me. Mother is not away from me nor I am away from Mother. This is the essence of Dhyana Yoga. My Dhyana yoga is of the formless. Spirit is formless. Radhaji is formless. Therefore I am imparting to you, the formlessness in Dhyana yoga. The formless and all-pervading Mother is always with me. I feel Her presence more than your presence. While I am speaking to you now, Mother is present here. She is listening and observing us. This is the secret of Dhyana yoga. This is the great Mantra. Several incidents have occurred and are still occurring in my life to instill the confidence that Mother is always with me. I shall tell you about a couple of them now. When we understand their meaning, the love of the Supreme Mother will bring tears in our eyes.
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When I was 13 years old, we were living in Kotipalli near Rajahmundry (a river bank city in the state of Andhra Pradesh). My life is extraordinary. One day I crossed river Godavari and went to the other shore. There was Nature all around. My Mother is the Sovereign of this nature. Thinking of the grandeur of her mysteries and miracles gradually I went into deep meditation. When I opened my eyes, it was pitch dark. There would not be any boats going back to the other shore for that day. Therefore I sat on the front porch of a house nearby. An elderly gentleman approached me and said ’Why are you sitting here? Go to the house in that lane’. He pointed out to the house and left. I did not know him. Yet I went to that house. Seeing me from a distance, the house owner called out to his wife saying ‘The boy is coming’. I began to wonder ’who are these people? I have no acquaintance with them. Yet they are treating me so affectionately.’ The housewife invited me inside and told me to take my bath so that she could serve me dinner. I asked, ‘Mother. Who are you? I do not know you. Who do you think I am? You are behaving as if you know me very well. Who are you mother?’ She replied, ‘Did we question you anything? Then why do you question us? We invited you and you came. Have dinner, rest for the night and leave in the morning. That’s all.’ I could not speak anymore. I had dinner and slept.
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I asked Nanna whether he was studying at that time to which he replied in the affirmative.
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Then I asked whether he had any further contact with that couple. Nanna replied,
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No. That was the first and last time I saw that couple. I never went there again. Now tell me. Who observed that I was all alone and hungry in an unknown place? Who served me food with so much love? That very moment my mind was filled with love and full faith in my all-pervading Mother. I am reiterating this again and again. At every step, have a link only with Mother. Have no other link. Then Mother will certainly come. Swami Vivekananda said ‘All time is now. All distance is here’. That is the Divine aspect. We are bound by the three phases of time 'past, present and future' but not for Mother. In the world above, it is ever present. If we get accustomed to the three phases of time here, how will we adapt in that world? We can understand that stage only if we try to experience it in this world. Therefore try to always live in the ever present state.
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Name and form are associated with this world. As long as man has even a little of worldliness, it is impossible for him to reach abode of Rasa, which is the greatest of all. The only way to reach there is by continuous flow of meditation. Feel God everywhere. That is the only penance. Constantly being in the thought that ‘the nameless, formless and all-pervading Mother is always with me’ is itself the flow of meditation. With practice, one will gradually get accustomed to the meditation on the formless Mother. This is the mediation performed by great rishis like Narada. This is also the meditation of all Radha sakhis including me. It is inevitable that one day you must give up the form and follow the formless.
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Love for formless Mother will increase exponentially and even become subtlest. I am always weeping for that subtlest form. Look! As I am telling you about this path of meditation, Mother is watching me with a smile. The all-pervading Mother is always with me. You believe me and follow me
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Telling this, Nanna went into deep meditation.
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There are innumerable incidents and witnesses to prove beyond doubt that Radhaji is with Nanna every moment. We read in the holy scriptures that when Maharshi Vyasa was roaming with hunger in the streets of Banares , Lord Shiva and Goddess Parvati personally came down to the earth in the garb of an ordinary couple and served him food. We now heard that Sri Radha Devi made an extraordinary incident happen and provided loving and affectionate reception and shelter to the great Rasika Mahatma, the confidential Sakhi who apparently appears to us as an ordinary person. We are indeed blessed! It is an established fact that Radhaji is always with Nanna, who is her dear Sakhi.
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Once, Nanna was deeply immersed in Radha Bhav. Witnessing Her divine splendor in his vision, he began to compose a song.
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Nirupanamu kada ne divya sobha
Ninu pogadaleka srutul neti neti ani palike !!
1. Aiswarya, madhurya, gnyana sakhtula kudi
Sarvesvarivi aina Saubhagya Radharo
2. Jagadeswarivi ainachanuvuto ninu cheri
Ammaro ani biluchu anandamosagitivi
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Your divine splendor is unique and incomparable. Even the religious scriptures are unable to describe You.
1. Possessing the powers of opulence, sweetness and wisdom, You are the Supreme, O Radha.
2. Though You are the Sovereign of the worlds, You have granted the bliss of being near You and addressing You as ‘Mother’
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After writing this much,Nanna relaxed in his chair. Then Mother came near him personally. She lovingly caressed his cheeks with Her tender hands and said , ‘Wake up. Continue the song’
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3. Etti siddhulakaina etti suralakunaina
Gocharinpani devi vacchinava thalli
4. Bhakta jana mandara mukti valadamma naku
Bhavadehamu pondi sevintuno thalli
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3. You, the Goddess who can’t be seen by any Gods and saints have come near me
4. O heart of devotees, I don’t desire liberation. I want to attain 'Bhav deha' (conscious body) and serve you dearly
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The song thus ended. What more proof is required to say that Radhaji is always with Nanna?
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Speaking about this song and his experience of Mother’s appearance on 19.02.02, Nanna said,
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If you sing this song daily with devotion and love, Mother will definitely appear before you
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Where is the boundary for Mother’s infinite love? She selected Her confidential sakhi for propagating the philosophy of Rasa! In addition, She presented that dear sakhi to thousands of people as ‘Nanna’. That Universal Nanna is showering divine love on all human beings and preaching the sweetness, greatness of selfless love by practicing the same himself
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Hail, Sri Radha Sakhi!
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