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30.12.02 Guntur Ashram:
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When he was about to take dinner, Nanna suddenly said,
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I will practically demonstrate a leela (divine play), do you want to see? I am the fully realised soul. I have reached above all planes in the universe. I have scaled those spiritual heights that a man can possibly reach. Pointing out to the middle room where he lives, I am in this room. This room is my master. Mother has appeared before me several times in this room. You cannot imagine how Mother instils my powers in the other person before me. One day I was writing the 3rd volume of the book ‘Brindavaneswari Sri Radha Devi’, It was noon time in peak summer. Mother saw me suffering from sweating and heat. She used one person as Her instrument and converted this room into AC. So money will come somehow. She is always with me.
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I want none of these. I want to do penance. I want Mother. That is my only aim. One small drop transformed into a continuous flow. That became Radhaji. Mother is omni-present. Such endless detachment within me! What does a sanyasi think of? Mukti(liberation)! But I have no such thought. Yet I am constantly in a state above liberation, in fact several steps above that, the state of Bhav. That is my situation. I always weep for Mother. 'My Beloved! I cannot survive even for a moment without you.' I can’t remain without Mother. I am a Sakhi. My life is Mother only!
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When I have nothing in my bag, everyone crowds around me. When I have the real wealth, nobody comes to me. When we separate the grains from the chaff, only a few good grains remain finally. Today I possess the real treasure of Ras. Only those who are destined to attain that fortune will come to me. That is why I thought 'Let Mother choose and send them to me'
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After some time, Anjani Amma asked, ’Nanna, what items (provisions like dal, salt etc) are required for the Ashram?’
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Totally immersed in the state of Bhav, Nanna responded, counting each finger as he spoke,
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Totally immersed in the state of Bhav, Nanna responded, counting each finger as he spoke,
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They are all Sakhis of Radhaji! Whether eating, speaking or sleeping, Nanna is always in a state of Radha Bhav. Seeing him in this state, we all silently offered our salutations to the fully realised soul!
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Only those who practice Ras are Sakhis. They are the rays of light illuminated by Love. Their heart and soul is Radha Rani, the epitome of Ras. Nanna inherently possesses the qualities of a Sakhi since birth. Tender feelings, loving temperament, considering others’ happiness as his own – these are the natural qualities and wealth possessed by Nanna. He used to say that by practicing Ras, we are gradually redeemed from our sins. He taught the method of practicing Ras to those who approached him sincerely. He used to personally guide everyone in meditation saying that
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By this Rasa, one loses body consciousness which is the root cause of all worldly troubles. As we ascend to the higher stage of meditation, there is no need for name or form. Only Bhav. The Bhav of Radha Rasa should flow continuously.
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Once, Nanna said
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In the higher planes, so many are waiting for me. They have seen me only once in this world. They can see me again while I proceed towards Mother’s abode
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This is the stature of Nanna. Such a jewel among Radha Sakhis draws everyone towards him, talks about meditation according to their individual level of spirituality and tries to uplift everyone
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Mother! I am overwhelmed. What can we do to repay his love? He has no expectations. He rejoices when we meditate as though he is gaining something. Once, after meditating in Guntur Ashram, Sriranga and myself called up Nanna in Vrindavan on our way back home. When we informed him that we were returning after meditation in the Ashram, he said
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I cannot forget this favor
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How can our meditation be a favor to Nanna? I am unable to comprehend the depth of his love. I am unable to express in words, the bliss that I experience, and the sweetness of Rasa in the depths of my heart.
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Radha premras nishkam
Kaha rahe rasjag mein kaam
Sakhi hi Radha prem sakar
Tat sukhi jeevan ras aadhar
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Radha’s love is selfless.
Where can desire be found in the world of Ras?
Sakhi is the personification of Radha’s love.
Considering other’s happiness as his own is the basis of ras
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-Sri Radharasa Madhuri
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