In October 1998, Nanna, Anjani amma and a few others went to Ravali. They did dhyana for some time and started back to Brindavan. As long as he did dhyana, Nanna waited for Mother but She did not give darshan. They came out of the temple and sat in the vehicle. Suddenly, a rose fragrance moved along with the car. Nanna bowed and said 'Mother has come.' The rose fragrance accompanied them till the outskirts of Ravali.
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Ravali is that divine place where Radhaji set Her lotus feet on earth in the lake there. Nanna was eager to celebrate more and more of Her functions so that the devotees who attended these functions will be blessed by Her sight and gain a place at Her holy feet. Radhaji will manifest Herself on occasions of Radhashtami, Vasanthapanchami, Holi, Guru poornima which are celebrated with so much love. It is Her nature to manifest Herself. Radhasakhi knows this truth. That is why he was particular that Sri Radha must set Her divine feet in the ashram in the idol form; Her functions must be celebrated in glory and mankind must be benefited.
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In 1998, Nanna prayed that more number of devotees must attend the celebrations, come in Her sight and be blessed. 'Mother, the glory of these occasions must shine more radiantly. Your loving sight must pass through them and the human beings must be blessed.' She assured Nana 'in future, the radiance of these occasions will flow. Everybody who attends these functions will experience bliss.'
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During this time, Nanna heard about Sri Nrityagopalasarma, a painter who received President's award. Nanna called him to the ashram and asked him to draw Mother's portrait. He explained the features of two year old Chinnari who descended in Ravali. Nanna prayed 'Mother, You came on earth in Dwapara yuga, 5000 years ago, directly from the sky as a two year old divine girl, fully adorned. Kindly grant me darshan of that rasa roopa.' She, who is beyond Vedas, who is worshiped even by Sri Krishna, gave Nanna a vision of Her appearance. He described that bhava roopa to Sri Nrityagopalasarma.
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He drew the portrait described by Nanna and showed it to him. Nanna commented that it must have the touch of Sri Radha bhava. He gave some suggestions and the portrait was drawn again. Nanna saw it and remained silent. Sarma garu said 'Mahatma, you had a vision of Mother. But I did not see Her.' Nanna placed his hand on the painter's head for some time. In the early hours of the next morning, Sarma garu attained Her grace and had Her darshan. He bowed to Nanna and left. The same evening, Her portrait was ready. Nanna and Anjani amma suggested some minor modifications. After making those changes, he looked back at the portrait and exclaimed 'Is this the picture I drew?' Nanna said 'it is no longer a portrait, it is Mother.' He already gave life to the portrait!
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Ever since this Chinnari came to the ashram, the atmosphere is always festive. The first Vasanthapanchami after Chinnari's arrival was celebrated on 22.1.1999 in Guntur ashram. The hall was overflowing with devotees. Anjani amma decorated Chinnari. We all worshipped Radhaji and our rasaguru with roses and jasmines.
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Nanna was immersed in bhava and glowing with rasa as he began his talk:
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Brahma said that his life span is not enough to speak about Radhaji's divine qualities. How astonishing that Brahma says his life is not enough! She is such a treasure of valuable divine qualities. Radha came with Krishna towards the end of Dwapara yuga. Prior to this, for millions of years, She refused to come to earth. Many people are not aware of this fact. Krishna begged Her..She did not agree. After he did severe penance, She agreed. We must realize that Her arrival is very significant. She came after millions of years. Rama's and Krishna's incarnations were over, yet She did not come down. This is a unique point. The other unique point is that Radha has no parents like Rama and Krishna did. She came down alone from the sky. Nobody came like that before. She came as a two year old girl directly into Ravali forest. This did not happen in any incarnation. Prior to Her incarnation, She came in King Vrishabhanu's dream that She would arrive at 5 a.m.; he must come and take Her. The king arrived with his whole army. Nowhere in the world did such an event occur! It is unique indeed.
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Nanna described how unique Radhaji's arrival is. Sri Krishna , The God himself did penance to make Her agree to come down. We can't imagine what divine vision he had and made such a statement which is above Vedas. Mother who does not come even once in a million years, came down for the sake of mankind in such a wonderful manner. That is why Brahma's lifespan is not enough to speak about Her invaluable divinity.
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I went to Ravali, where Mother descended along with some devotees. They constructed a temple there. Nobody is allowed to enter the main temple. I was allowed inside along with my group of devotees. I asked Her sakhis 'we have two idols in our ashram. She said that She does not like the decoration made by us. The next day, we adorned Her in a different way. She did not like that also. I requested everybody in Brindavan to tell me how to adorn Her. The Mahatmas replied 'we can tell the meaning of even Vedas but not Mother's words. It will not be external meaning. There is some implication in Her words. You must learn the meaning from Her only.' I know some of Mother' s sakhis. I went deep into Ravali forest. Two of Her sakhis met me and said 'Not only you, even Trimurthis - Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva cannot adorn Her. She did not mention about adorning Her. She meant that you must adorn yourself. She said that She will not touch any human being who does not adorn himself.'
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The bride is fully adorned before going near her groom. This is only to attract him. Similarly, God is the groom. If we go near him in a disheveled state, he will not accept us. We must adorn ourselves before going near him. Nobody knows how to adorn himself. This is not mentioned in any Vedic scriptures. Those who wish to go near God must adorn themselves. This does not mean applying perfumes and paste on the body; not even acquiring religious knowledge or even music. Then what is it? What must we do? Mother told us what we must do through Her sakhis. This is Her message to me.
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If the bride is not good looking, the groom will not accept her. Unless God accepts us, we do not get salvation. Moksha cannot be got by japa and tapa. The Vedas say Nayamathma pravachena labhyaha - With lectures, japa and tapa, God will not come. Na medhaya - God will not come with your intellect and intelligence. Na bahunam sruthena - Even if Rama, Krishna, Vivekananda speak and you listen, God will not come. The Vedas clearly said that God is not attained by japa, tapa or listening to religious talks. Then what can we do? Yame vaisha vrinathe thena labhyaha - God must accept you. He will take near him only that human being whom he accepts, not the others. When and how will he accept us? He will accept us when we adorn ourselves.
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How should you adorn our self? How will Mother be pleased? She told two principles which you must implicitly follow. Within six months, She will certainly grant Her darshan. You need not go anywhere or do any rituals. Follow these two principles diligently. If you inculcate them into your life, She will grant Her darshan in some way or other.
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First point, your sadhana is only a part of your life. Your japa and tapa are for 4-5 hours in a day. Will the husband agree if the wife would be in wedlock only for a few hours in a day? The human being came to this world only to do sadhana. He forgot about this and became engulfed in family ties. He neglected the very purpose of his life. Your life must become a sadhana. That is very difficult. The life in which you can achieve this will be your last life. You can't make your life a sadhana ..it is very difficult.
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There are mainly two conditions for sadhana. It must always be linked with Mother. The devoted wife will not leave her husband even for a minute, whatever his nature may be. In the same way, you must not leave Mother even for a moment; you must with Her all the time.
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Rasa is being enacted on earth by seeing what is happening in that dham in their vision. The stage arrangements are very expensive. Devotees attend Rasa leela in large numbers. Let me tell you one scene from the Rasa that takes place in the higher world. Radha is taking bath and Her sakhis surrounded Her. Krishna came from somewhere. 'I must see Radha. I am coming near Her.' The sakhis objected. 'She is bathing. You cannot go near Her.' 'I cannot live even for a second without Her, not even a single second. Please take me near Her.' Her fell at the feet of the sakhis and maids. 'Please ask Her and take me inside to meet Her.' 'We will not allow you inside.' Krishna was weeping bitterly. 'That is our tattwa.' Krishna, the Ruler of the Universe said he cannot live without Radha. That is the reality! 'I am providing happiness to all the three worlds. But there is nobody who can provide me happiness here. Everybody takes happiness from me but cannot give me happiness. Only one person gives me happiness. She is Radha.' Ah! There is no one to provide happiness to Krishna, the Sacchidananda swaroopa except Radha. What is the power in Her? What kind of happiness is that? Extensive research on this topic revealed that the happiness we know is not the happiness he meant! We cannot give him happiness because our senses are not enough, our power is not enough. We can only think but can't provide happiness. You can build temples and arrange lectures but he is not happy. Then how does he attain happiness? What did Radhaji give him which we don't know about?
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Radhaji possesses one unique power which we do not have. If She gives that, man will become insane and uncontrollable. What is so special about this? The Vedas mention about this power. God has many powers but there is one power which even he does not have. That is known as Hladini sakthi. Radhaji's uniqueness is Her hladini power. Though, so much is written about it, nobody really understood what it is!
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Once Manmatha, the God of love thought 'I made Brahma and Shiva feel love and desire for a woman. Now only Krishna is remaining. I must instill desire in him and pull him down. He approached Krishna and said 'I came here to make you a prey to desire. What do you say?' 'Maha Rasa will begin in a few days and thousands of women will participate in this. If you are able to weaken the mind of even one woman, I will surrender to you.' 'Very good, I agree to your condition. We shall meet again in maha Rasa. 'After he left, Krishna became worried. 'I made a mistake. Manmatha made even Brahma and Shiva turn upside down. Can he not control at least one woman? Who can save me from this situation? Only Radha! She has the greatest weapon - Hladini sakthi.' He did penance and She appeared before him. 'Krishna, why did you call me? What do you want'' He narrated the incident to Her. '.Oh, that is all! Don't worry; I will take care of the situation.' She did not care about Manmatha, who gives desires to the whole world.
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The Rasa began. Manmatha came with his five arrows. Radhaji looked at Krishna and pointed her hands towards the sky as if assuring him not to fear. The very next minute, Manmatha himself was disturbed. Overcome with desire, he bowed at Krishna's feet. The foremost quality of hladini is attraction. If you visit Brindavan on Radhashtami day, you will see an ocean of people there. That is Her attraction. If we surrender our self and seek shelter in Her, God will attract us towards him. We will automatically become adorned. However, this is very difficult to achieve.
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Nanna explained the highest quality of Mother's hladini sakthi - attraction. He assured that we would attain Her darshan within six months if we follow two steps stated by Her. Radhaji turned Manmatha who turns the world upside down and threw him at Krishna's feet. Such a Mother will accept us only when we adorn ourselves in the way that pleases Her. Nanna told us how to adorn our mind.
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I will tell you about hladini sakthi. So many people came here today. Somebody wrapped a shawl around me; somebody garlanded me and wrote some words in praise of me. This gives me happiness. I feel 'Ah, he praised me. I am so great.' But in this state of happiness if you feel 'this happiness is because of me' you will move away from God. You can never be the reason for this success. It is Mother who resolved to celebrate this occasion and brought so many devotees near Her. She will make you sit on a golden throne. If you sit you are sitting on the throne due to your capacity, you will be destroyed. That is Radhaji's greatness. She can take the smallest person to the highest level. If you think you rose due to your greatness, you will fall. You can't help thinking like that...This is a difficult yoga; he is a yogi. Though they praise you, you must not say aloud but feel in your heart and not mind that 'this is not due to me; this is Her leela.' This feeling is the first step of sadhana. Mother said 'if you are truly my devotee, I will lift you up though you are a small girl or boy. Once I lift you up, it is very difficult for you to continue there. Be careful. You may fall.
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'If you are truly my devotee, I will lift you up though you are a small girl or boy. Once I lift you up, it is very difficult for you to continue there. Be careful. You may fall.' The way Nanna said these sentences makes us wonder whether it is Radhaji or Nanna who is saying them. Probably Nanna became Radhaji himself and said these words.
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Vaikuntha is the abode of Lord Vishnu, hence great. Jaya and Vijaya were the two gate keepers of that dham. Just like Maha Vishnu, they were also four armed. They are always at the service of Vaikuntha dham. How fortunate! Hladini is fully active in that dham. Once, Goddess Lakshmi returned from her visit to her devotees. She wanted to meet Vishnu. The gate keepers stopped her saying,' mother, the Lord is resting. You cannot enter now.' Truly speaking, they have no right to stop her. The pride that they are also four armed like Vishnu made them lose their sense of reasoning. They made her wait outside for a few minutes. Later, Brahma's mental sons Sanaka, Sananda and others came to see Vishnu. They also were stopped outside. They were annoyed and cursed the door keepers. Lord Vishnu came out and said 'you did not get the curse directly from them. You made Lakshmi wait outside for a minute. That is the extent of your pride. That is an unpardonable mistake.
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When somebody is successful in every field, the others around him praise that he is the greatest. He becomes proud, arrogant and egoistic. He feels that nobody else is as great as him. Nanna cautioned us about this. Instead of directly telling us how we should be, he told us how he must be when he is honored! That is how sensitive his teaching is. If you think that the credit is yours, you are sure to fall. Radhasakhi is very sensitive. He will not hurt anybody. Yet he must teach facts to the world. In such situations, he includes himself with us and cautions 'this must not be done' or advises that 'this must be done like this'. Where is Nanna, the Radhasakhi and where are we, ordinary human beings? The hladini attribute of Radhaji came down to earth as Nanna and took up the pious duty of elevating the human beings through his teachings.
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An Indian working as an engineer in America met with a car accident. He was suffering since many years. He rang up Nanna one day and said that doctors declared his case as incurable and he has no option but to die. Nanna spoke about this episode
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He asked me to save him. He is present here among us now. I sent a mantra from here. I thought of Mother, made a resolution and sent the mantra. 'My son, how are you feeling now?' 'My head ache reduced.' 'How is the rate of heart beat now?' 'Better.' It took only half a minute for my vibrations to reach America from here and half a minute to return. Just one minute! There are two aspects here. That is a tremendous power. The distance between both countries is 7000 miles. You don't know the man or that place. But when you send vibrations from here, he is cured there. How was he cured? The arrogance that I am great is bound to arise. But this is not my power. Understand carefully. I am giving an example. No human being can achieve something like this. It is very difficult to cure somebody somewhere in India or America, somebody you never saw before, through mantra. Really very difficult. Mother is doing everything and giving the credit to me. It is only because of Mother that so many people come to see me. They garlanded me only because of Mother. He draped a shawl only because of Mother. The idea is not his; She prompted that idea in his mind.
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This is a Rasa! A strange world! So.whether your wealth or fame increases, don't ever become proud and feel 'this is mine.' Mother will lift you up only when you don't become proud. However high you reach, remain with a passive bhava. 'Mother, You have taken me as Your instrument and are enacting the play. This is Your leela. I am not related with it in any way; nothing is mine here.' If you lose this passive bhava, you will face dire consequences. Contemplate on Mother throughout your life. 'How will you think of Her all through your life? What about your job?' Mother suggested a unique way to do so through dhyana yoga. Her sakhis told me about this. You can do dhyana for 24 hours. You can contemplate on Her without a moment's gap. You need not give up your job, your family, your daily chores or even your penance!
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How to do dhyana yoga even during job and leading a family life? Yes, there is a way. 'Surrender your whole life to Her. Sadhana must not be only a part of your life; your whole life must become a sadhana. This is possible.' How absurd! How incredible! Remember that there is no truth other than Her. She is the embodiment of Hladini sakthi. So you must try to do this dhyana. It is very great. Krishna is Mother's devotee. He surrendered himself to Her. Ah! The Vedas declare that he is Her devotee. That is why the path we follow is so great. Contemplate on Mother; it is very beneficial. Nayamathama balaheena labhyaha. God cannot be attained by the weak ones. Weak does not mean physical weakness; the senses must be strong. Man descended from his elevated plane only because his senses were weak. You think this body is yours. But this body is not the real you. When this body itself is not yours, then who is father, mother, brothers..You will leave this body some day; it is like a rented premises.
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Four days before Samadhi, Sri Sankaracharya told his disciples -
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Mata nasti pita nasti nasti bandhu sahodaraha
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Artham nasti gruham nasti tasmat jagrata jagrata
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When this body is not yours, who is your father and mother? Be aware of this truth at all times.
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We can continuously contemplate on Mother even in such a situation. I will teach you for a few days without charging you anything. You need not give up your religion or culture. Retain it to some extent. We are not interested in individuals. You must understand the tattwa carefully.
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The sakhis came to the dense forest and gave me two principles. Firstly, make your whole life a sadhana and not only apart of your life. If you do japa and tapa only for a few hours in a day, God will never come near you. If your whole life is a sadhana, what about your family? Even if you surrender your life to God, you need not give up anything. Mother showed me this path to follow. Some devotees in Guntur, Hyderabad and other places are able to do dhyana for 14-15 hours a day even while doing job.
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I do penance for 18 hours a day; not less than 16 hours. Otherwise I will not eat food. Life is useless without this penance. We neither gave up job, lectures or writing books. I am writing book sand giving lectures. I am speaking now since 30 minutes. As I speak, I have the bhava that She is here only. I am talking in Her presence. (weeping) Mother's thoughts have never left me. I have Her near me; I am giving this lecture in Her presence. So I am giving the lecture as well as contemplating on Her simultaneously. This is the principle which Mother told in the forest. This can be explained only to the devotees who are eager to follow this path.
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Radhaji's is an extra-ordinary incarnation. Everything about Her is unique. In kaliyuga..you cannot give up your job, at the same time you must think about Mother. You can do both simultaneously. In our childhood, we knew a famous ayurvedic doctor named Chitta Varghula Sitaramyya garu. The king of Pithapuram arranged accommodation for him. His specialty was that even if you wanted to eat oily food when you had dysentery, he would give medicines to reduce dysentery even while you ate oily food. You did not give up eating; still your illness is treated. Well, not all doctors can do like him. In the same way, without giving up your job and family, you can contemplate on Her for 24 hours a day. Unbelievable yet true! I got this opportunity to speak to you due to Her. So many people assembled here only because of Her. Like this, keep Mother before yourself for each and every small thing. That is enough. In this way, you will be in Her service for 24 hours as you continue your job. They are two wings or two eyes , your job and Her penance. Both eyes will see simultaneously; not with one eye open and other closed.
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'This is the path taught by Mother in the forest. If the interested people come to me, I will teach them'. Nanna showed the royal path for incessant Radha dhyana; living routine life and also continuously being in Her thoughts.
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Speaking about felicitation function organized for him, Nanna said 'So many people came here because of Mother. They garlanded me because of Her..' He put Mother before him to accept all the accolades given to him. While receiving felicitations, awards, rewards, people become egoistic. At such times, if you do not forget Mother and feel from your heart that She is responsible for everything, you have no fear. He explained this truth very clearly in this lecture. 'This is Rasa. A strange world.' Vishwodbhava sthithilayeshu nimitha leela rasayathe nama idam cha kuru...The creation and causation in this world is God's leela. This creation is a part of God's rasa leela. This leela which appears as a strange world is the play of God. The mahatmas who realize this truth do not waver under any circumstances. Is it surprising that Nanna, who is a participant of that Rasa leela, is concerned about the well being of humanity and hence teaching us in such detail?
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Entha kalambaye Matharo ninu veedi
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Aa prema bhavambu aa Rasa leela
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Endu kanagalenu matha adukonava nannu Devi
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Anandavahini Devi andaalu vedajallu Thalli
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Mother, it is so long since I left You, the flow of love and the Rasa leela. I can't find You? Mother, You are the provider of happiness and beauty. Please bless me.
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