" Within another hour, I had high fever and headache. Radhamahalaxmi Devi ordered that no doctor should be called because my case was typical. My devotees were surprised and family members became restless. They wondered that my situation is critical; I am suffering with high fever, why is she refusing entry to the doctor? Would I die? At 10 p.m., again the divine voice was heard. 'I made him get down here because he will die at 2 a.m. His life span is completed. That is why he is made to come here. The doctors cannot do anything in this situation. That is why I did not you to call the doctor. If you wish that he must live, then don't do so. Many of you are present here. If you give some of your lifespan to him, I will link it with his and prolong his life.' Nobody spoke. Nobody came forward to give me a part of their lifespan. The school teacher and his wife (Radhamahalaxmi amma in the photo and her husband) said 'take the whole of our lifespan. We don't know who this great power is. We will be happy to die even tomorrow.' On August 22, 1953, I went into coma. Everybody left me. I woke up in the early hours of the next day, normal and as usual. I was told that on 22nd night, mother said 'he will face some illness for sometime on August 22nd but there will be no danger. 'Later, I went to Anantapur. Due to some reason, the Governor postponed his journey. "

" I joined my duty as District Education Officer (DEO) in Ananthapur. From there, I was transferred to Srikakulam. I worked as in charge of two districts with nearly 1800 subordinates working under me. One day, I was sleeping in this same chair I Srikakulam at 4 a.m. (Nanna never slept on a cot.) A bright light focused on me..I woke up. A small girl was standing there. 'Till now you served the government. When will you come into My service?' Radhaji's speciality is that She will give you the direction as well as the power of execution. To follow Her advice, I must leave my job. Immediately I said 'today is the last day of my service in job. You have come, Mother. Now I am moving away from job.' Believe it or not, I did not have any money because I was scrupulously honest and not corrupt. That day I left the service forever. "

" Since then, Radhaji is my life (prana); my wealth; everything to me. (weeping). I left service as a penniless fellow. I left just like that. Today, my position is such that nobody can follow me. I will celebrate such functions as long as the Sun and the Moon exist. My second oath is that I will not ask anything from anybody. I am continuing my activities with full faith in Radhaji's power. "

" She told me 'Follow dhyana yoga. That is the highest yoga.' She also told me the principle of dhyana yoga. It will take 2-3 hours to explain. That is the simplest and highest sadhana. She said 'man's sadhana is only for a few hours in his whole life. Bur there are some mahatmas who convert their life into sadhana. Your life must be a sadhana; Sadhana must not be a part of your life. This is the condition mentioned by Krishna himself. "

" Unless your life becomes a sadhana, It is of no use. Radhaji's speciality is dhyana yoga. I will explain about it tomorrow at 9 a.m. All of you may take Mother's prasad now. "

" Everybody must think only about Mother. Nobody is near me. Phate Krishna enacted a leela here. Mother took the opportunity and really came here. He is fortunate. He is blessed and made us blessed. I bless Phate Krishna that be must live eternally and enact Her leelas. "

" Make the announcement that the leela on the test of love will be displayed here at 7a.m. tomorrow. "

" Mother did come. "

" Yes. She did not come initially. I thought She didn't come so far and closed my eyes. When I opened my eyes, She was here. "

" What is my grace? "

" Mother came and put Her hand like this ... "

" When ? "

" Yesterday She showed Her hladini power. "

" Yesterday it was the attribute of Her hladini sakthi. Today, She Herself came here. She was here for only two minutes, not more than that. In those two minutes, She was near me for one minute. "

" Then I thought -Mother , You came... "

" She was near everybody. "

" She saw everybody. She gave me one minute and the other to everybody. This is really very difficult. Our link with Mother is due to the virtues of so many previous lives. Otherwise it is impossible. "

" In a few days , we will install Her idol in Guntur ashram. "

" This is not a one time affair. She will remain till the end of kaliyuga. Unless Radhaji comes, Maharasa will not begin. Yesterday it was for a short while. Today it is on full scale. That is why it was so good. Everybody danced. "

" Mother's power is very intense. She always remains in silence. She works dynamically but appears as if She does not know anything. ..They made Her sit on my lap. How strange.. "

" I requested Mother so much to come to this world. "

" They must give the eligibility! She will give opportunity even to those who do not have the eligibility. Is everyone who came here really eligible? Everybody is the same for Her. She grants eligibility to the non eligible ones and gives Her darshan. That is Her greatness. . "

" She is only one among all present here who totally experienced Her leela. Mother filled Her heart. "

" Nobody can do anything. Only Mother causes everything. "

" Only Mother; Give the sweet to that little girl.. "

" The girl on the stage came down to me. This is not a drama. "

" It is a practical reality. "

" I am comfortably sleeping in this chair, swinging my legs and listening to in this chair, swinging my legs and listening to your songs. What am I doing? (weeping) .What is mine?..This is true.. "

" The birds eat the biscuit crumbs daily. I feel very sad if they don't come some day. Mother is present in these birds; She is present in you also. I have nothing but respect for all. "

" I spend most of my time in Brindavan. I stay for only two months a year in Guntur. The atmosphere in Brindavan suited me. I feel Radhaji' s movement here. All these steps are Hers. Her grace, Her kindness..(weeping)that feeling comes automatically. Brindavan is not a land of trees. An invisible power is working here. If you move there in a spiritual frame of mind, you will surely be affected..Hladini sakthi is always with Mother. It does not touch anybody else. "

" You saw the procession recently. Thousands of people danced. It is not a preplanned and rehearsed dance. When some invisible power enters, men cannot ..did you see the Rasa yesterday? People were mesmerized for so long. One girl became senseless. Everybody got worried and brought her near me. She said 'I lost attachment with the world. I don't want any family. Grant me the boon that I will always remain with Radhaji.' A 19 year old girl! That is the power of hladini. You become passive and detached suddenly. Passive towards the world and yearning for Mother - both will happen simultaneously. This hladini sakthi is possessed only by Radha . No wonder She is so great! "

" What we cannot attain through sadhana even after several thousands of years, Mother grants within a few moments. Just a few moments! You must have detachment towards the world and yearning for Mother. When She came near me for the first time, I was a DEO of two districts with so many subordinates...luxury. "

" My son had diphtheria and became unconscious. Though he was unconscious, he was uttering 'father'. He did not know where I was. I came home that night. I know that he would die, as soon as I take him in my lap. Who am I to stop that jeeva? I came near him and he died in my lap. I took him to the burial ground myself. I did not hand over to anybody because the links must break if karma must leave completely. I only buried him. No father can do it. I put mud, closed the pit and returned back. From the burial ground, I went directly to the library where I was to give a lecture. The lecture went on for two hours. When some people came to me after the lecture to touch my feet, I said "don't touch me. I'm coming directly from the burial ground. Touch me after I take bath, not now?" When they repeatedly asked me why I came from the burial ground, I told them the truth. "

" So, my son's death in my lap, taking him to burial ground, burying him myself and coming directly from there to library, giving a lecture on philosophy..this is not an ordinary matter! "

" It is difficult for an ordinary man to face such a situation. I did not have any shock. I remained passive. For me, my son or anybody else is the same. Seeing this, some people...During the speech, I did not think of him at all. I could do this because I was passive towards the world. Nothing in this world can attack me, not even the sweetest aspect. I will remain passive. But towards Mother....(emotional) "

" When I think of Mother, I become almost..Yearning for Mother, passive towards the world - this is my way. You need not chant the name of Rama and Krishna. It is a waste. Be passive towards the world and yearn for oneness with Mother, with the Divine! If you can maintain this for one year, you will find many changes, you will become almost divine! That is esoteric science. Your japas are of no use. The Vedas say Nayamathma pravachena labhyaha' .The Kathopanishad says that God will not be attained by lectures, rituals like japa and yagya. Na medhaya. Even if you read spiritual books , you can't come near God. Na bahunam sruthena . Even if you listen to speeches, God won't lift you up. Yame vaisha vrunathe thena labhyaha. He must accept you. That is the only qualification. Japa and tapa are small things. Many people are not aware of this. Vivekananda also told about this. Just a week prior to his leaving the world, he said 'You cannot pay japa and tapa and buy God just as you pay money and buy vegetables.' Only stupids believe that... God will not be pleased with japa only. You need ananya nishta - one pointed devotion towards him. Many people worship their deity and criticize other Gods. That is wrong. "

" The Vedas say Krishnena aradhyathethi Radha. She became Radha because Krishna worshipped Her. Nobody gave Her a name. In the Rasa played yesterday night, it was clearly shown who Radha and Krishna are! "

" In one leela, Radha goes near Krishna in the male form. 'What do you want, my dear' I asked. 'As long as I am alive, I must not leave Radha. I will die without Her. Leave me near Mother, that's all.' That is Rasa leela. "

" Rasaleela actually means attraction towards rasa and detachment from the world. Your only duty in this life is to have passiveness towards the world and yearning for Radha. In original Rasa, there is no dance. Even Krishna has no interest, only Radha has interest. This is depicted in some leelas. When Radha decides, then only passiveness towards the world and yearning for Radha are developed. Nobody has inherent attachment for God. The maharshis asked Brahma 'the scriptures tell us to worship only Radhaji. What is her Supremacy?' He replied 'there is only one reason. With Her determination, even the worst human being will develop yearning for God and passiveness towards the world in just a minute; passiveness towards the world and yearning for Radha. No sadhana is needed. She is the sadhana. The result of thousand years of sadhana is obtained from Her glance. She will see you. That is why you must not miss the celebrations of Her birthday. Mother gave me a message 'Millions come here as if to see something. I can't be seen. I am invisible. So don't come to see Me but come to be seen by Me. "

" This is divine. It will come. I know that it is coming. I will do that there. That's all. Whether they are in India or America, it is the same. Distance does not matter. That is a spark, a kind of bright ray. That will come and due to that, relief will be provided. "

" I did not see them. I don't know about them. I speak only about myself, not about others. This spark is not restricted to illnesses only. So many purposes! An engineer earning around Rs 20000 pm spent all his money on drinking. He did not give any money to his family. They faced a lot of problem. She approached me with this problem. I told her to bring him near me. 'My son, (Nanna was weeping). You are addicted to drinking. She has no food at home.' 'Nanna, I promise to give up drinking from this moment. I will not drink in future.' True to his word, he stopped drinking. What do you say to this? That is Mother's power! Another man is a painter, a womanizer. He left his wife due to his bad habits. He is a good painter. I had a Krishna's idol which had to be painted carefully. I called him and asked him to paint the idol. He agreed. 'This is not an idol, my son. This has life. Keep it carefully in a neat place.' After he started the work, the prostitute came near him. 'This idol has life. He is watching me. Don't come here till this work is completed.' She left. That's all. He stopped all his bad habits and his association with other women ended. "

" One lady in Guntur transferred the papers of her house in her only son's name. From then onwards, the daughter-in-law stopped giving her food. That old lady came near me and cried.' I did not eat since three days. Please give me some food.' She is the owner of that house! We gave her food and sent her home. Later I called her son. 'She is your mother. Prepare a will and transfer the property back to your mother. After her death, you can enjoy the property.' He agreed and promised to sign the documents. Unfortunately, he died all of a sudden. I went there on put my hand on his dead body. He sat up. 'My son, you agreed to write a will. Won't you do so?' 'I promised you. I will sign the documents.' Annamraju Seetapati Rao, a famous advocate accompanied me with the documents. 'Sign on this paper. I will take care of the rest.' He signed on the paper. All this time, I was unconsciousness. When he got up, I fell on a glass lamp. As I regained consciousness, he was falling down. When I became totally conscious, he died. That is how he wrote the will (after death)! "

" There is no fear of death. It is very easy to die. Forgetting Radha is very sad. We can die several times, it does not matter. But leaving Mother is torture, sheer hell. It is very difficult to bear that grief. The grief of separation is unbearable. Do not give me that grief, Mother. I can bear anything but not the grief of separation from You. That's why I wrote in my song 'Never leave me, my Mother..' "

" You may have many works to do. You will settle clothes; you put things here and there. Though you have so many works, will you leave your life somewhere else? Never. My life is there. Your life is my life. "