" Who decorates a little girl? She asked me to apply oil to Her. Who can apply oil to a girl? "

" I adorn Her with a saree. Who can do it? "

" That's it! No ordinary persons can apply oil to Mother. I may hesitate. That's why She physically came and stood beside me. She actually came near me with a physical body. 'Who are you?' She asked me. I did not speak about this masculine body. I replied, " I am a girl about 11 years old". She left soon after."

" Probably by that time, my appearance had transformed from within. This incident took place many years ago implying that this change began right from that time. She has been planning and indicating that I am a Sakhi. See how subtle Her leela is!"

" Yes. You must bring something. The poor Kuchela borrowed a bundle of rice to offer to Lord Krishna. While Kuchela was washing his feet, Krishna was looking at the bundle only. Finally he took the bundle to see what he was hiding. I too desire that you should bring something………"

" God is invisible. He is beyond sense organs and also the mind. Vedas say "Yato Vacho Nivartante aprapya manasa saha". Neither your words nor even mind can reach him. Then who can serve God who cannot be reached even by the mind? It is not possible. You can never realize God. God will not grant his darshan even after ages of penance. Vedas also say "Nayamatma Pravachanena labhyaha" -Paramatma (the highest soul) cannot be attained with spiritual talks and penance. "Na medhaya…..". You have studied Vedas and understood their meaning. You also have a good knowledge of science. So you must know that God cannot be seen by you; He must accept you. That is the reality! There are several nuances of God's grace. First Roopa darsanam Second Tattwa darsanam Third Leela darsanam Fourth Anugraha darsanam Anugraha darsanam implies that God bestows his grace completely and takes the human being near him. "Yagnanam japa yagnosmi" "Ananyaschinta yanto mam yejanah paryupasate teshyam nityabhiyuktanam yogakshemam vahamyaham" "Dhyanena atmani pasyante" Geeta has stated the above three steps to attain the grace of God. There is a fourth step in Radha tattva. But I will not talk about it now. Infact I may never mention it. This fourth step is very significant. Mother may grant it to one in a million! This is not mentioned in any scriptures, Geeta or Vedas. A few desired to know about this fourth principle. Mother must give permission… It cannot be found anywhere else; it is very difficult. "

" I have talked about the three principles mentioned in Gita. The fourth is not superficially apparent. I will hand it over imperceptibly. Mother must bless you. Your penance, your dhyana and your books - all these are worthless. God cannot be attained with penance, rituals or dhyana. There are so many examples which show that God cannot be attained even with dhyana. At the most, he will show a leela in your dhyana; nothing more. You may be satisfied that you have atleast got one blessing. But this is not sufficient. Seeing a leela is not enough; one should go near him, gain the wealth of his divine quality, obtain his cooperation, become a member of his family and be so closely attached that you feel "You are me and I am you". Hanuman is one among those few who attained this stage. His service is extra ordinary. When he slit open his heart, Lord Rama and Sita were present there. Hanuman said "They cannot live without me". He is the only devotee who said that 'God cannot live if he does not see me'. That sentence is so noteworthy. That path is so dee….p. That is very different; that is the fourth step. At this stage fourth step is not needed; the first three are enough "

" Just as I am unable to stay away from Her, Mother is also not able to stay without me. She was in a dilemma whether to choose between 'Loka Kalyanam' and Swakalyanam' (welfare of the world and Herself). She may decide that 'I want my belonging' and call me back anytime. "

" Some feel that it is enough if God gives them a darshan of his leela. Many in Brindavan wish to play a part in his 'Rasa leela'. Infact most of them pray for a part in his divine play so that they can sing and dance with him. Some devotes desire to be at least a small weed in his garden. But there are very few who become inseparably attached to him and delve into the secret of the greatest secret "

" We must have a darshan of this Radhaji. We must take part in Her leelas. We should become intimate to Her. We should feel that we couldn't live without Her. This is our ultimate goal. We must reach the state when we feel 'I cannot live without Mother'. That is the real yearning. The real call of yearning means 'I cannot live without you' "

" The yearning of devotees is very sensitive. The yearning of worldly attached human beings is different from that of the devotees. Mother sees the depth of our love. She is not bothered about external appearance and behaviour. She does not even see our weeping. She sees the inner depth. Therefore, our dhyana yoga should come from the inner depth. External appearances or where we sit are irrelevant matters. Your yearning should be intense and profound. Your devotion should be in solitude. Your penance need not have any show. Go deep within you. The deeper you go, the better."

" No one should know that you are a devotee. Ramakrishna Pramahamsa cleaned the toilets of the scavengers. He concealed the Mother shining within him. In the same way, hide Her in your heart. You may talk about Her, but conceal the real Mother within you. Don't discuss much about that."

" Suppose I wear a wristwatch, a white patch can be seen when I remove it. If the skin is covered it appears white, otherwise black. We must create a covering for Mother also. We must place Her in our heart and not reveal to anyone. Once a devotee Kalavati arranged a grand celebration and dinner. When her husband asked the reason for celebration she said, 'you blame God externally but pray to him in your heart. I realized this just now. So I am celebrating with that happiness'. The husband wailed 'you have revealed my secret; how can I live now?' and collapsed. Such secrecy must be maintained. Even today some people are so secretive that no one knows what is hiddn within them. You too should conceal certain matters within you."

" You may give lectures about God but conceal the Mother whom you worship within you. Pray within you. Do not discuss with anyone regarding how you worship Her. Don't feel that you should project yourself greatly in front of the world. Even if the whole world praises you, it is of no use; Mother should praise you. The world cannot do you any good although it praises you. Mother alone will uplift you. She is present here this moment but cannot be seen or heard. She is invisible. We should also keep Mother carefully and secretly. "

" One must have three qualities to go near Mother: First quality:- Your life should be dedicated to Mother. Your life is not meant for your children or for others. You are living only for Mother. You should be ready to leave this world and go with Her the very moment She calls you. Second quality:- Brindavan is the place where Mother is present. So you must also be in Brindavan. Even the trees speak there. They have that power. Once Brindadevi came from Radha Kund. When Mother asked her what brought her there she replied 'Krishna is dancing on the bank of Radha Kund. In whichever direction the tree sways, he is also swaying in that direction and dancing. It is so strange'. This is a great leela. The tree is teaching dance to Krishna. The tree is Mother Herself! She concealed this fact. She took the form of a tree and taught Krishna every posture! No one is aware that Mother is the embodiment of Jagadguru (Guru of the Universe). She is the Guru of even Krishna. She has expertise in 64 arts, each being greater and unique than the other. Even if we possess two or three of them, we can become great scholars. Mother is the Master of 64 arts and this is one of them. With her divine resolution, she took the form of a tree and taught dance to Krishna. Those who wish to go to Mother's presence must learn music, poetry and dance. They should learn the art of using apt words and speaking fluently. Mother is pleased by these arts. It is impossible for us to learn all 64 arts. They belong only to Her. Radha is so great. We are fortunate to serve such a Mother. She showed me some unique arts, really exclusive ones. "

" You should be ready to leave the very moment Mother calls you "

" Both these ashrams are very great. But when compared to Mother, they are small. For Her sake, I will give them up in a moment "