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| Brahmeswaradi sudurooha...namosthu Vrishabhanubhuvo mahimne |
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Sri Radha's divine feet are endowed with majestic glory. Even Brahma, Siva and all the demigods cannot attain the pollen of Her lotus feet. Sri Radha's merciful glance always showers rasa on Her devotees. Obeisances to the glory of Sri Vrsabhanu's daughter who eternally showers rasa which is the essence of all existence.
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-Sri Radhasudhanidhi 2
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Sri Radha, who has such glory at Her feet which is unattainable even by Brahma and other Gods, has showered Her loving glance on the jeevas on earth. With utmost mercy to bless Her devotes, She took manifested Herself in the form of Her sakhi. As Her sakhis sang 'You came down to the worlds as sakhi and lived in the world as sakhi'. The Hladini power that has Sri Krishna in Her spell glowed in the divine form of Radhasakhi. Radhaji, Radhaji's Hladini aspect, Rasasakhi blessed us with Her presence in the form of our Nanna.
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Being Sri Radha's hladini power; Her confidential sakhi; Nanna made some extraordinary statements in his divine life which can be made only by such a Rasikasiromani. We are fortunate to recollect some of his unique statements in this chapter. Rasaguru's statements may appear strange and unbelievable. But the words uttered by Rasa sakhi who belongs to rasa dham is truth and only the truth. Nanna, please make us understand atleast a little of the depth of meaning and love conveyed in your words.
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In his dhyanayoga speech on 1.1.2002, he clearly stated who he is!
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You are under the impression that your Nanna is here. But the real Nanna who is transformed due to Radha dhyana is within me. There is a strange bhava deha inside this body. It is in the form of a small girl.That is sakhi! Sakhi with bhava deha! Bhava deha is permanent.
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I can bring Her grace upon mankind. I have that power.
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My dhyana is continuing incessantly in this world as well as in rasa dham.
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Sri Hitacharya mentioned about dhyana in the states of wakening, sleep and dream. I have gone beyond these three states in dhyana. I am constantly in rasa dham which is several planes higher than moksha. I am in super dhyana state. Both the states of doing dhyana and not doing dhyana are very sweet.
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Nanna dealt with many cases in the astral plane. Sometimes he went to greater depth. During such time, his physical body activity gets reduced. While he was absorbed in one such case and his body did not show normal activity, Anjani amma was very worried. When he regained normal body consciousness, he said,
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Don't worry. It happens sometimes. Mother told me to reduce such cases in future. Moreover when my dhyana in vyaktha, avyaktha and para worlds becomes more and more intense, I will not have body consciousness. Mother told me to reduce my dhyana intensity.
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Can anybody comprehend Nanna? He is beyond imagination, beyond bhava and in a state of incessant dhyana. No wonder he clearly stated
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There is none other like Rama ; none other like Krishna and none other like me!
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It is not so easy to come near me. Obtaining Radhasakhi's darshan is not a small thing.
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Associate with me. You believe me and follow me.
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He stated how difficult it is to attain Radhasakhi's darshan and also showed us the way to uplift ourselves.
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Many of them are waiting in the higher worlds. They saw me only once here. They can see me again when I go back to Mother's dham.
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Awesome! The Gods in the higher worlds had his darshan only once are waiting to see him again! Radhasakhi is in such an elevated plane! Yet he lovingly blessed us with his presence and granted the fortune of moving in the path of rasopasana.
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Sri Manohardasji, a mahatma residing in Venuvinod kunj, Brindavan said 'It is not easy to write about sant mahatmas. What can man with his logical brain write about their divinity? It is difficult to express about their state which is beyond prakrithi, in words, which belong to prakrithi! Our beloved Sri Radhikaprasad Maharaj ji is such a divine manifestation.' All Brindavan mahatmas agreed with these words. It is not possible to know about Radhasakhi who is one of Radhaji's aspects. Nanna only blessed us with whatever little we could understand about him.
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One day a mahatma from Ramakrishna mission visited Guntur ashram. Nanna asked him
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Can you realize tathwataha Ramakrishna?
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He bowed to Nanna and left.
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I can realize the inner meaning of tathwatah.
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'Manushyanam.' .One among a million human beings will try to attain siddhi. Only one among those few who attain siddhi will realize me as tattwatah!
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What did Krishna mean about tattwatah in the above verse? I longed to understand. I searched and finally found it. I can realize the inner meaning of tathwatah.
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On 14 September 2002, Nanna flooded everybody who came to attend Radhashtami celebration in Brindavan in ecstasy. Everybody danced in the procession that evening with joy. When we said it would be nice if he also had accompanied us for the procession, he said
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I also came. I was a little above you. During that time, Mother's hladini aspect will lift everybody present there to the higher mind and make them dance.
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Nanna clearly said that he is Her hladini aspect in the higher plane who lifted us all and made us dance blissfully. On another occasion he said
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I am Radha.
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His statements like
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If you saw me, it means you saw Mother
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it is the same if you offer to me or to Mother
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supplement this statement. By saying
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All paths are within me
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he revealed the divine truth that he is the origin of all spiritual paths. On 27.03.2003 he said
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I am like the Sun's brightness. I behave in the same way whether I am in the temple or toilet. I do not differentiate between anybody. All are equal for me. Nothing of anybody will touch me.
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This sentence reflects his unique rasa personality because it is a well known divine truth that he can uplift any jeeva by merely propagating waves of rasa through him. He shed tears when he saw jeeva suffering in the wheel of family life. He did not have any special attachment towards anybody. He showed equal love and kindness towards everyone. Like the sun rays, his love also knew no difference between jeevas. It is indeed difficult to understand the inner spiritual life of this Rasikacharya.
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Radhaji is my sakhi. As soon as I hear Her name, I go into bhava. All other images and thoughts disappear from the mind. None other than Mother! My Mother has entrusted some works to me which are yet to be completed. In order to do these works, I must reduce my spiritual bliss.
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These words uttered by Nanna on 4.1.2000 exhibit his urge to uplift mankind. It is no wonder that he said my Mother because it is natural that She gives Herself to the sakhi who surrendered to Her!
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Sri Krishna is the complete God and foremost Divine. Such a Lord asks sakhi 'Amma. How are you?' 'Krishna I am well.' Radhasakhi says
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Krishna as Krishna is not true. Krishna as Radha is true.
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So Krishna is not separate; he is merged with Radhaji.
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You may be wondering why I am agreeing with the statement in some book that Krishna holds Radhaji's feet. Yes. I who knows everything am saying that Krishna is Radha's devotee.
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Saying
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Krishna and we sakhis worship Mother together
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, he clarified that he is near Sri Radha's feet along with Krishna.
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Does the jeeva need both Radha and Krishna to experience love rasa? Is Mother only not enough? Mother who gives rasa to Krishna also is enough for me.
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Radha is the giver of rasa! Krishna pleads 'Hey Radhe! Place Your holy feet on the dias and begin Raasa. You must give rasa.' That's why Nanna says Mother is enough to give experience of rasa. Sri Radha's highest tattwa can be understood from Nanna's words
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Beyond Krishna there is Radha; but beyond Radha no one is there.
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Only he who can say that
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my dhyana continues incessantly in this world and also rasa dham
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has the authority to reveal such secrets of rasa!
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In December 2001, he gave a series of lectures for 25 days on dhyana yoga. He explained the four principles granted to him by Radhaji : tatsukhena sukhitwam(your happiness is my happiness), ananyanishta(one pointed devotion), sakara nirakara samanvayam(coordination of form and formless) and nityasahacharivratham(constant companionship).
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Consider these four principles as your Bhagawad Gita. Whoever does dhyana yoga must follow these principles. This is your last life. If you conduct your life accordingly, you will not take birth again. These lives are in my hand. I will give them.
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Who is Nanna who claims that he can free the jeeva who is bound by karma and is struggling in the cycle of birth and death?
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I am the partner in Radha rasa. I am the tattwa which cannot be separated from Mother.
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Nanna who made such a categorical statement can easily free the jeeva.
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Sakhi is not one who moves alongside Mother. She must enjoy continuous rasa. She must become a partner in rasa and a part of Mother!
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On 16.3.03 Nanna said
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Mother is eternal. As Mother's sakhi, I am also eternal. I have no death. There is no hurdle in my work.
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I will live till eternity and I will do Mother's job till eternity.
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Krishna is not a devotee of all Radha's aspects. He is devotee of one aspect only. She did not grant him all aspects. She shows the aspects needed for sakhi, not all.
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Again he said
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Whether Radhaji sits, stands or moves, I have the boon to be with Her only. There is nobody else like me.
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Nanna says that ashtasakhis and even Krishna cannot have darshan of Her complete tattwa. But he is present in Her every movement. Is this possible for anybody else except Her hladini aspect?
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Mine is bhavaloka. I will go back near Mother. She only sent me here. When Her work is done, She will take me back.
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I have no karma. Even the sakhis with me have no karma.
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Everything in your world is karma. Everything in my world is leela.
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I work in this world through leelas. My leelas have form, I have no form. I am formless but my leelas have a form.
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I am the head of this world drama. Mother gave me this role. Her aim is to spiritually uplift human beings. I am always in that job only. If I do not establish the link between you and Mother, where will you go in this jungle?
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I will be there as long as the Sun and the Moon exist.
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I am the only one like myself; nobody else. So don't compare my life with any other life in the whole world.
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I am Radha.
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I am doing incessant dhyana on Mother. This is my life. Dhyana is my message.
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I am always at a few planes higher than moksha. I have reached those spiritual heights which is possible for a human being.
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Thus he showed how high a human being can ascend in spiritual path. His life exemplified how one can move from an ordinary life towards life filled with bhava.
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Anjani amma asked Nanna what is his sadhana. He replied
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I am a free jeeva like the butterfly. The butterfly accepts nectar of all the flowers.I also took the essence of all religions and all traditions. I realized that the essence of all of them is rasa! I understood that rasa is Radha. That is why I am doing incessant Radha dhyana.
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Speaking to a few Brindavan mahatmas Nanna said
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My Radha is the Radha of all traditions.
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He understood all religions and traditions thoroughly. He accepted their essence like a butterfly and is handing over to jeevas.
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The butterfly which emerges from caterpillar will fly away. I got permission from Mother. I will leave now. I got promotion.
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The butterfly played an important role in Nanna's leelas. If you think of him wholeheartedly, you will find a butterfly before you. There is no place when it can't fly! We have seen unimaginable incidents indicating his all pervading nature in the form of butterfly. The sight of a butterfly kindles the light of Sri Radha bhava dhyana in each one's heart.
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A few days before her departure to heavenly abode, Radha mahalakshmi amma told Anjani amma 'All kshetras, all pious rivers, innumerable Gods are present in Nanna's holy feet. Do not ever move away from his divine feet.' Anjani amma who came in Nanna's presence since the age of 8 years, and grew in the guidance of Radha mahalaxmi amma diligently followed her words. She drew many rasa secrets from Nanna in the course of conversation. Those who had the opportunity to listen to the conversation between the Rasayogi and Yoginimani are indeed fortunate!
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Hladinisakthi cannot stay away from Radhaji. But as instructed by Mother, she came down to Earth for upliftment of mankind. As Radhabhava was enhancing every moment in Radhasakhi, Nanna was always in a state of rasa. The world appeared as an illusion to him.
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I do have attachment or detachment. My loka is bhava loka, my body is bhavadeha. Both are eternal.
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Today I have the real wealth of rasa with me. Only those who deserve to receive it will come to me.
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I am giving you the ripe fruit. Do not hesitate. Accept it.
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He lived as one among us and made each one feel that Nanna is mine. At the same time he says
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You cannot catch me. You can catch only this body. This body is not the real me. This is only external body. Within this body, a bhava deha, sakhi is present. Two in one!
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I am God's man. God's power, thejas is always with me. Sakhi who is always near Mother is very important. She is the Ruler of millions of Universes.!
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Mother gave me some powers. One of them is to invoke Her. I can bring Her and bring Her grace upon humanity. I can bring down Mother's grace and await the result.
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I accomplished works that could not be completed by Rama and Krishna. I will show you.
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It is very difficult to visualize divinity.I saw divinity. Why shouldn't I use the mysterious God for welfare of mankind? Why can't I help the world? I can.
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He proclaimed thus and continuously took up activities for uplifting human beings in the manner that pleases Radhaji.
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Jeeva does not know where he will go after death. But I know where I will go after I leave this body. I will go beyond Swarga, Vaikuntha and Goloka to Rasadham. I will be at the feet of Raseswari as Her partner in Sri Radha rasa.
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The rasikacharya knew that he would be shining in his natural state of Radhasakhi, as a part of Radhaji, as Radhaji's aspect of seeetness and love. In a state of bhava adwaitha, he declared
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While he enjoyed blissful ecstasy of rasa, he was in adwaita state. While worshipping Mother and teaching Her tattwa to others, he was in dwaitha state. Rasopasana is in the dwaithadwaitha states.
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Though Mother gave Her sakis the blessing of equality, it is equality in bhava but not equal status.
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Being in a state of incessant Radha dhyana, he was constantly in a state of oneness with Her. In such a state he said
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He assured that he can take the sadhakas to Rasadham within three minutes as Her maids. Can any other rasika mahatma give such assuranace?
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When I asked Mother if there is anybody else like me, She replied 'No. There is none other like you.'
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It is clear that Radharani declared that Nanna alone is like himself.
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In his words on 20.3.02, while showing his all pervading nature, he also shows his sakhi quality.
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There are 14 worlds. I have a different form in each world.
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Mother will send me internationally. I will not come back here. There are so many globes. She will depute me somewhere.
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With utmost kindness he added
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If you appeal from here, I will see from there only. I will look after you.
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Do incessant dhyana alongside your regular works. There is no link between the two. I will separate them.
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I will enter you and make you do Sri Radha dhyana. I will separate you and your karma.
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Only Nanna can make such statements. His own life is the answer to our persistent doubt whether we can remain in our family and still reach Radhaji. He fulfilled his responsibilities as a son, husband, father and employee while doing incessant Radha bhava dhyana.
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'Nanna, you said that unless we do incessant dhyana throughout our life, we cannot reach Radhaji's holy feet. So many devotees come to meet you and tell about their problems. This is a continuous process. Did it so happen that there was a gap even for a second in your dhyana due to such interventions?' He replied
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If there is a gap even for a second in my dhyana, it means that there is no life in my body.
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That means Nanna's dhyana is continuing incessantly within him. He is continuously doing activities for human welfare. No wonder he could say
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I will separate you and your karma!
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Due to this dhyana, I lost touch with the world. I got separated from the world. In this dhyana you get the feeling that 'my world is different. I am different. This is external world. I have no connection with this world.' I got this feeling. You also will get it. You family is not an obstruction to dhyana.
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On 5.2.03 he said
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Radhaji is formless. I, Radhasakhi am form. You must combine the form and formlessness.
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I am a complete man. I cannot live away from Mother even for a moment. I move like Her shadow as She sits, stands or moves. I do not exist without Mother.
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This is probably what he meant by
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Sakhi is the manifestation (form) of the formless Radhaji.
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On 21.3.03 he said
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Mother told me I am Her life. She is the life of my life.
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Radhaji's life is Radhasakhi. Radhasakhi's life is Radhaji!
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Radhaji alone is my life; Radhaji alone is my wealth.
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I do not want any object, matter or person who is not associated with Radhaji.
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I am not detached. I maintained some association.
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His words indicate that he maintained passiveness towards the world and intense attachment towards divine since childhood.
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Nothing in the world can attract me; nothing can attack me.
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Both the ashrams are great. However when compared with Mother, they are small. I will leave them in a split second.
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His statements reveal the passive nature shining in him.
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His life is a living example for the jeevas who are entangled in family attachments.
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The other name for sakshi marg (path of passivity) is nivritti yoga marg (path of renunciation). Lead your family life in the path of yoga. You can rise to upper worlds easily. It is the right of human beings to reach the higher dham.
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On 31.12.01 Nanna said
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I struggled a lot and became accustomed to worship of formless! I felt as if I was moving deeper and deeper inside me. I realized inwardness. My astral living started in Naimisa. I had theory, practice and experience there. From then onwards, formless positive powers began to enter me. They will not shine in this world. I attained some extra-ordinary powers which no other human being on Earth possesses.
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Saying that he attained some unique supernatural powers, he said they will not shine in this physical world. Being in this world, he accomplished many feats to help the people. That means though he is physically present here, his permanent abode is Rasadham! Radhaji's powers in that world reflect in Nanna's leelas on this Earth.
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Though he attained innumerable great powers due to Radha bhava dhyana, he never used them for himself.
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I attained several unique powers due to Radha bhava dhyana. I surrender those powers and siddhis at Mother's feet at the end of each day.She will use those powers through me for elevating human beings.
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It seems as if Radha or Radhasakhi is doing these leelas to elevate mankind. It is his inherent nature to put Mother before him in every action taken by him.
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Mother. I will walk in this world but behind You. I will do the work entrusted by You, but I will put You before me as I do these jobs. My life should reflect You only.
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Thus he surrendered himself to Her.
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Dhyana is my subject; dhyana is my message. This is my life.
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Sri Radha's loving vibrations flowed through his divine body every moment!
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On 8.6.03, at 5.30 p.m. during dhyana I asked 'Nanna, when some demonic forces attack you while you are providing solace to the troubled human beings, why don't you defend yourself?' Within a second, Nanna voice was clearly heard saying
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A Rasika siromani who gives up all his activities and surrenders to the Almighty never tries to defend himself.
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Nanna provided relief to many people who were suffering from problems related to astral plane. We do not know how they do it because neither Nanna nor Anjani amma boasted their achievements. But it is believed that they face some inconvenience when they deal with astral spirits. If nanna wanted, he could easily drive away the evil spirits. But he will not do so. He told us the reason too. He surrendered himself completely to Mother. It is Her duty to take care of him. This is what teaching by practicing means!
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As she is constantly a partner in Radha rasa and jesting with Mother, She bestows Radhasakhi with closeness to Her. This can be seen in the incident when he explained Radha and Krishna's natural union.
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On 24.10.2000, Nanna was commenting on the verse in Haitachaurasi. 'Bani Vrishabhanu Nandini aaj.'. As he heard this verse, he became immersed in bhava.
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While Krishna became one aspect of Radhaji, She became the other aspect. That is their state of natural union. Which aspect of Radha is Krishna in natural communion? He might have changed into the rose colour which is an inseparable part of Her.
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Exactly then a devotee called up and said that while she was doing dhyana, everything around her appeared pink.
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The thief is caught!
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Nanna is addressing Raseswari Sri Radha, who is the deity of Sri Krishna's worship as 'thief is caught!' This shows he is Her confidential sakhi and is inseparably linked with Her. This is beyond our comprehension!
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Radhaji sent Her sakhi to Earth for betterment of mankind. But they cannot stay away from each other. On 10.12.01 Nanna said
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I am unable to stay away from Mother even for a second. Mother also has a problem. She also is unable to stay from Her loving one. At the same time, if She takes me back, the works planned by Her will remain incomplete. She is in a dilemma whether to think of Herself or the mankind.
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Who can make such a deep statement? The Swamini who is unattainable to Brahma and other Gods even in their dhyana; the Sovereign who is the life force of Lord Krishna; She is unable to live without Her sakhi! The sakhi about whom Radhaji said 'I am unable to bear this separation' came to our midst as our Nanna. Obtaining Nanna as our Guru, our God is the fruit of our good deeds over several lives indeed!
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It is easy to love Mother. But it is difficult to understand sakhi's love. Mother derives love. Sakhi gives love.
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These words prove how fortunate one is to attains sakhi's love.
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I saw the world as it is. Only Mother takes care when the danger point approaches.
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I will not leave a single jeeva who came into my sight.
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Is anything impossible for me? When you face a big problem, you must be patient.
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God who is invisible to you is visible to me.
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I feel that after I go near her, Mother will give me some extraordinary powers which other sakhis do not have.
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Being an inseparable part of Her, he did not want a worldly name which separated him from Her. She agreed to his request and made him Radhasakhi.
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The sakhis who look after Mother hold each others' hands and dance. They do not hold Mother's hand nor does She hold their hands while dancing. But Mother danced with me. She proved that there is no distance between us. She showed this in Anjani amma's vision on 11.9.2002.
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Beyond Krishna there is Radha, but beyond Radha no one is there.
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Radha is higher than Krishna because She possesses mahabhava.
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ISCON devotees went upto Krishna. I went upto Her who provides happiness to Krishna.
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Such rasa secrets can be revealed only by Radhasakhi who is constantly residing in rasadham. All mahatmas in Brindavan agree with the mahatma's words.
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Mother selected me in this world. I will leave as a sakhi. She may depute me anywhere in Her innumerable Universes. Once we leave, we will not come back for several ages.
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Radha is the master key of Krishna. A small girl; but most powerful throughout fourteen worlds. Mother has surrounded me. I am in Her sight; She is making me speak these words to you. When you enter bhava, you will realize better.
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Bhava is most important in life. Lifespan is prolonged due to bhava. We must attain Mother's bhava which is devoid of the three base modes.
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I can make possible what is impossible to the human being because I am an instrument in the hands of all pervading Mother.
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I will surrender where Mother's love is there!
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Our Nanna, our Guru, our God, is the mahatma for whom nothing is impossible and who does not know failure. What a splendid fortune! There is no wealth on Earth which is as valuable as our Nanna. It is certain that if there is love towards Mother in our heart, Nanna will remain with us permanently..
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I am the rose who is in contact with whole of Mother.
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I am in super dhyana state. The states of being in dhyana and also not being in dhyana are very sweet.
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When we lead a life with nobody except Nanna and have ananya nishta towards Mother, he will always be with us. He became Radha bhava dhyana and is waiting for all of us to reach him through dhyana.
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Nanna. Please make us do dhyana and accept us.! Radhe Radhe Nanna!
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Mother. You are the deity of love. You are my path; You are my Ruler. I am Your beautiful rose. I am Your loving sakhi.
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