" We went to her house. She prepared snacks for me. We ate and left together. The whole process was over in 30 minutes. "

" Yes, she knew about me. "

" I heard about her but never spoke personally. I only knew that an aged person came..You can include this incident in the book as a leela. "

" This is a great leela.. "

" why are you sleeping? Get up. Prepare some snacks for me. "

" What happened to her grief? I spoke to her in a state of total bhava. That bhava touched her and her grief has gone. That's why she could get up and serve me. "

" The printing of books is in progress. I have written the Telugu version. Hindi translation is almost complete. You must translate into Tamil. Finally, we must translate into English. "

" In some countries, they cannot follow any language other than their mother tongue English. "

" My language is Telugu. "

" We shall buy a car and travel from place to place; we need to print books in Tamil, then go to Tamil land and distribute them. They will read the books and understand Mother's greatness. Many people are not even aware of who Radha is! "

" He is a Muslim boy. He began to chant Mother's name involuntarily. His father instructed not to give him food till he takes the name of Allah. Rehman was starving for 6 days. Yet the poor boy did not give up Her name. His mother hugged him and pleaded with him to utter Allah and pacify his father. She was unable to see the plight of her son and fainted with grief. At that time, Rehman left Mathura and went towards Brindavan. Mother sent Her sakhi, Champakalatha to fetch him. He was taken from earth in his physical form. That is sakhi bhava. "

" He thought 'Mother's pleasure is my pleasure.' That's enough. That is sakhi bhava. He thought, 'Mother likes this name. I will not give up Her name.' Though he was whipped and he had blisters all over his body, he did not give up Her name. He did not escape or shout back. He simply sat in a corner, weeping. Though he is not a sakhi, another sakhi entered..Many people weep, reading about this incident. Finally Mother asked him to come to Brindavan that night. The journey from Mathura to Brindavan is about 7miles. He walked all the way in the biting cold of winter dressed only in a loin cloth with wounds all over his body and without food since six days. There is no parallel to this incident in the whole world. I have not seen such a person anywhere, anyone...he was weeping that he wanted only Mother. Though he was suffering so much, he did not stop chanting Mother's name even for a second. He was uttering only 'Shyama Shyama' all the time. Your translation must have the same bhava. His mother was weeping. 'You are our only son. Why are you behaving like this?' His father beat him with a crop that is used to beat horses. Yet he did not run away nor was he depressed. Can anybody do like that? One cannot be a sakhi without bhava. You must write this carefully with expressive feelings. The people will simply read and throw the book aside if there is no bhava. "

" The reader must weep as he reads the books. Sakhi bhava should be expressed like that. Gulab Baba thought that if he cannot serve Mother, he is unfit to live and decided to end his life. He slept in front of Mother's temple on the hill top. It was almost 5 days since he ate anything. He was an old man and it was peak summer. The loving Mother showed such unbelievable mercy on him. This is real sakhi bhava. He had only one daughter who was married and living with her husband. Mother took the form of his daughter and came near him. She spoke in his daughter's voice 'Baba, I have come. I will dance before you.' He even forgot that his daughter was married and not staying with him. Mother made him forget everything. He got up to greet her. She asked him to eat something. 'I heard that you did not eat anything. First eat something.' She served him food and he ate. This is the service provided by her. After he ate stomach full, the girl (Radha) started dancing. He was playing the guitar as She danced. He sang the popular song 'Maine rat na lagaye .' Mother is very fond of this song. He was playing the music as She danced in his daughter's form. He could not recognise Her as Mother. Suddenly, She rose above the ground and started dancing in the air. When She began to dance in the air, he realised that She is Mother and not his daughter. 'My Mother, you have come, you have come.' He collapsed and gave up his life. He is indeed a sakhi! "

" Gulab baba gave up his life! He would not eat if he could not serve Her on any day. Such.we cannot describe.. "

" One must weep when you read about the lives of rasika devotees. Only when you weep, you are a sakhi! All these stories are included in the books on Rasika devotees in Vraja. "

" One day, Mother was moving in a garden. She heard somebody weeping. 'Oh! Who is weeping my dear!' She noticed that a rose bud was weeping. 'My little one; why are you weeping?' 'I am still in a bud stage. Unless I blossom into a flower, you will not kiss me, embrace me and put me in your hair. I don't have that fortune now? That is why I am weeping?' Mother touched the bud and within a few minutes, it blossomed into a flower. She plucked the flower and held it to her eyes, kissed it, hugged it to Her heart and then adorned in Her hair. Mother has so much regard for sakhi! "

" In Gulab Baba's house, She danced in the form of his daughter who left for her in-laws house. If She did not feed him, he would not have eaten anything. She fed him properly and only after he ate a stomach full meal, She began Her dance. He saw Her dance and died. "

" We are seeing only the sakhis here. They all are of low standard. "

" There, you are coming back to the start. Sakhi means... "

" I have seen many sakhis here.. "

" They are friends; lady friends, addressed as sakhis. So they are sakhis on this earth. Why don't you agree? "

" The sakhis in this world are like this and the sakhis in that world are like that! "

" There is no confusion, it is very plain. You all could not understand me. Sakhis means...generally they are addressed a sakhi. Sakhi... "

" The girls being addressed as sakhi here are trash. It is not so in that world. "

" Haridasji Maharaj stayed in Brindavan. He is truly Haridas (servant of the Lord). Why people are addressed as Haridas today? Why do you agree? "

" ..The boy and his mother were starving for six days. He had bruises and welts all over his body. His father forced him to wear only a loin cloth in the biting cold. That's why he is a sakhi! We are not interested in technical sakhi. She is sakhi, infact more than that. An ordinary sakhi will not wait; he surpassed the sakhis who are near Mother. No wonder She sent Her sakhi, Champakalatha and took Rehman near Her. "

" He must attain a part of Her (amsa). Otherwise, he is not a sakhi. He will be a sakhi in name only, he does not have sakhi bhava. Sakhi is actually the name of a bhava. It is not just a language; it is sakhi bhava. Some of the bhavas are santha, dasya, sakhya, vatsalya, madhura (calmness, servility, companionship, affection, sweetness). Sakhi must attain sakhya bhava. Without that bhava, she cannot be a sakhi. "

" I don't know about them. I experienced. "

" Wait. I have seen what a sakhi is. When I sit near a sakhi, I feel like weeping. I sat near some persons, I felt like weeping. Whether she weeps or not, I feel like weeping. When you see her face; if she is a sakhi, you must weep. It is not deliberately weeping, you cannot control. "

" The tears of an ordinary human being will flow from the inner corner of the eye. I have read many books? From which end of the eye do the tears flow in sakhi bhava? "

" If the tears are salty, it is trash. The tears should be sweet like Ganges water. "

" When I was in bhava, Ramesh Baba came to see me. He said 'I read that Ramakrishna Paramahamsa wept for Mother but I am seeing that before my eyes now. I am losing control on myself.' I didn't even speak to him. What a sin! He brought a book to note down points about Radhaji. His book remained blank! He came again recently when we were not there. He offered a saree to Mother and left. Till now, he did not offer a saree in any temple in Brindvan. "

" Amma. One day a little girl came near me and asked 'who are you?' Do you know about this? "

" Yes, I told you on the spot. Involuntarily I replied' I am a 10 or 11 year old girl and had tears in my eyes. She heard my reply (I am a girl) and left. That is my first experience. Who is She? She never told me about Herself. "

" Yes. She showed that within this physical form, my sakhi form also developed by then. She introduced within this body. She came to test whether I would consider myself as the girl within me or this exterior male form. That's why, she asked 'who are you?' When I said I am a girl, it is clear that I am idenifying with the little girl within me and not with this physical body. Another time, She gave a bottle of oil and asked me to apply oil to Her. Who will ask to apply oil on Her? Only a sakhi! Will a girl ask a man to apply oil? Never. So, I must have attained sakhi bhava that time. Sakhi roopa! "

" He meant that Mother will see my state and control, if necessary. It is only through Mother. "

" Otherwise, how did the dead person come alive? When our house owner died, I thought of Mother and strongly put my hand on his chest. He got up, signed on an important document and again fell dead. When he became conscious, I lost consciousness. "

" He said 'I am Kalasarpam'. "

" I told five points; all new points. The incident when a little girl emerged from Mother's idol and another girl emerged from me and both danced together.. "

" Yes, that is another incident. Since that day, my eyesight improved. Involuntarily, I narrated and he noted down all the five points; you can talk to him and find out. Is the incident in Sri Lanka..sea..Ravana's fall..? "

" He said they were wonderful! He also said that would write the book without even thinking of food and sleep. Now I don't remember what the points are, all are new. "

" Before writing this book, you must chant Mother's name non stop for three days. Tremendous power will be generated. She will give you new ideas. "

" It's okay if there is any break. Don't care for the break but don't stop. Feel Mother's presence strongly. Feel as if Mother is with you. That's enough. "

" It is a permanent fund which shall never be disturbed. I will create 7 or 8 funds this month and increase to 10. Then there is no worry. "

" We shall go to Delhi and travel to Hindi speaking areas. We shall distribute the books printed in Hindi. Then it becomes easy for them to participate in our dhyana yoga here. Some 30-50 people may come forward. Among them.. "

" Mumbai via Hyderabad. We shall distribute books as we move. Many people will join us after reading the books in our dhyana yoga. Next, we will visit Kolkata because many people will be coming from there also. We can easily expect 40 people. "

" You do that first. Feel that Mother is with you. Not simply taking Her name; you must feel Mother's presence in you. Then begin to write the book on the fourth day. "

" You must also write about the lives of those devotees like Hitaharivamsa, Naravahana, Vithaldasji and others, who reached the sakhi state to some extent. "

" Vithaldasji is a great sakhi, an ideal sakhi. When he heard that his guru passed away, he collapsed on the spot. That is his life. He was staying near the king. The doctors came and declared him dead. Such lives must be described in the book. Though he was provided a royal building, he lived only in a small hut. You must also highlight that he patronised the two armed Gopala and not the four armed Krishna. When you impress upon such points, you will get good ideas. You must depict the life of sakhis effectively. Don't concentrate on theory. Reduce theory and emphasize on practical incidents. You must develop their lives, based on bhava. Vithaldasji's life will blend well with your bhava. His life is wonderful. You can write 10-15 pages about the changes in his life. Then you can highlight the effects in some instances. You can use direct speech as much as possible, particularly when you narrate the incident when his guru did not come.. This will intensify the effect of your bhava. Bhava should always be expressed directly. You are using indirect speech saying 'he did this' and 'he did that'. It will not be effective. You must use direct speech in some portions; about 5-6 parts. You must develop these parts carefully. "

" About 7-8 persons wrote the Ramayana. Why did so many people write the same epic? "

" You can always write what is contained in that book. Don't reproduce the same words. Change the words, style and write more effectively. Then you need not even quote the other book. "

" Kulachandra is a great sakhi who gave up everything for Her. How does Mother work within him? There are many such instances in his life. Sakhi's nature includes ideal sacrifice. Without sacrifice, one cannot be a sakhi; it is only humbug. Sakhi must have great self sacrifice and surrender himself totally. Such a powerful king as Kulachandra bowed down before the enemy only because he would not displease Mother! There is no parallel to him even in Ramayana and Mahabharata. He knew that if he did not fight, they will take him as a prisoner and conquer the whole country. Despite being such a great warrior, he lifted his hands in defeat. You can't even imagine that sacrifice. "

" You must tell about Mother's powers and cite some examples. Mother is always searching for Her people. What is this quality known as? "

" Yes. Now you must give an example to explain this quality. You can develop on the incident of that sanyasi in Brindavan, Bengali Baba.. It may span over 3-4 pages. Mother came specifically only for him. She went directly near him and spoke to him only. She did not even see anybody else. This is important. Sakhi wants only sakhi. They don't separate from sakhi. "

" Yes that is sakhi bhava. You need not even mention about the sakhi. That bhava will search only for sakhi. She left thousands of people and came only towards him. That is sakhi bhava. He also would be like that. He may be a sakhi too! You can mention in your book that only he who feels Mother is a sakhi. 'Mother,You only are my sustenance. I have none other than You. I will not go anywhere. I will not leave Brindavan. '. You can develop on these lines. The impact will be more when both are sakhis. "

" Bhaktanugraha, eagerly showering Her grace on Bhakta (devotee). Who is a devotee? She is looking out for a rasika devotee. "

" Whether he is a sakhi or not, she wants him to be at least a rasika devotee. He must be associated with rasa... She wants that rasa. "

" Mother Radha was not present in the week long discourse on Bhagwata arranged by King Pariksheet because even a single sakhi was not there in that congregation. Mother said that none of Her sakhis were present there; She did nor say rasika devotees. Normally one who is not a rasika devotee cannot be a sakhi. Whenever you write theory about Her, you must give an example. The reader will be highly impressed. We don't want theory; we want only Bhavukas. I adopted the same style; one theory followed by an example, a story or an incident. It will be very interesting for the reader. "

" You cannot write more than 100 or 150 pages about Mother. Don't try to simply increase the volume. Don't care for volume. Even if it is only 100 pages, it must be sweet. "

" If you have the matter, you can write even 1000 pages. Don't stretch the book without matter. Don't care about the volume of the book. Don't extend it for the sake of pages. "

" Shakespeare said 'my words are based on bhava. English language is not enough to express my bhava. So I don't want this grammar.' He created his own grammar, popular as Shakespeare grammar."

" Similarly, the Arabic poet Iqbal said 'this language is not enough for my ideas. I want my own grammar.' He followed his own grammar popular as Iqbal grammar. "

" Language is always subordinate to bhava. Bhava is prominent and language is minor. Language is only a vehicle carrying bhava. The bhava within you is most important. "

" Just writing that one weeps in this bhava is not enough. In Shakespeare's play, the character comes on to the stage, weeping with bhava. Here, he recollects and weeps. Shakespeare does not agree that this is wrong. He advocates that sorrow and anger originate from within; it happens behind the screen. "

" I approached them on behalf of somebody for money. They told me to take whatever I wanted. In fact, she only removed the money and gave me. Her love is indescribable. She is his second wife and grand mother of our devotee (Kurukshetra Lakshmi). Her daughter is also a devotee. She kept aside Rs. 3000 and wanted to come near me. Unfortunately, she died. Lakshmi gave me the money and I put it in Kishori fund. She was a good poetess. "

" The old lady was full of love. Long ago, I went to see her. They followed the system of wearing a veil. She removed that veil near me. A miracle took place that time. Since the last 5-6 years, she stopped eating because she wouldn't feel like touching food. When they served me food, I asked about her. 'Where is mother?' 'She does not eat food.' 'She will have food with me. Please call her.' She sat near me and had food. Since that day, she was cured of her illness. From then onwards, they developed tremendous faith in me. "