" Ananta Krishna told his friend Inna Reddy, 'I am in unbearable pain. I am crying now. His friend told him, "why do you cry? Come to India. We have one great person in Andhra Pradesh, whom we address as Nannagaru. Radhika Prasad ji! I shall take you near him. Mother will grant you Her grace through him. Then you will be cured. You will, in turn, preach about Her. "

" 'Before I come to India, I want to test your Nanna. This test is for your Radhika Prasad garu. If he stands the test I shall start immediately, without thinking about expenditure.' 'What is the test?' 'He has never seen me, I have never seen him. He does not know my house here in America which is about 7000 miles away. Since he is all pervading, if he really possesses the effect of mantra and the power, as a sample, my pain should be controlled for one hour. I must totally be relieved from pain. If he can do this, I will certainly come there'. This happened! I did not see the person. I did not go to America. I don't know his house. Though all these are not known, due to the power of Her mantra and Her all-pervading nature; She decided and his pain reduced. When I asked 'Are you in pain?' he said, 'No, there is no pain. I am coming. To India.' He stayed near me for 41 days. He was totally cured. I told him one night that his pain would permanently vanish the next night. It happened in the same way. He came here from America and is presently in Puri Jagannath on some work. He will return in 2-3 days. "

" So, nothing is impossible for Radha. My life is very strange. When I was the D.E.O., in Anantapur, I was traveling from Bander by train. Radha Mahalakshmi after whom this Ashram is named, lived in Guntur. She is a great devotee who did great penance. She asked me to alight the train in Guntur. I said, 'I cant get down. The Governor is coming in two days. As the district head, I must be present there'. She refused to listen to any arguments and insisted that I must get down. I don't even know why I got down. I stayed in their house that night. They gave me a head-bath the next morning and served food. At 10.30 A.M. I had a head-ache. By 11 A.M. it became very severe. By 1 P.M., coma stage commenced. I became unconscious. Radha Mahalakshmi Devi said this cannot be treated by doctors. The doctor was not allowed to see me. Some of my relatives and disciples in Guntur came and argued that 'Nanna belongs not only to you but to us also. We insist on calling a doctor'. She said, 'don't argue. This is the order of the Gods' - I don't know what happened that night. By morning, I was absolutely normal. I was informed that Mother said 'His life span is over. That is why I made him get down the train here. If his life span is to be prolonged, anyone of you can give a part of your life span. I shall attach all the pieces of life span and link it with his lifespan. I have this power.' Nobody came forward to spare a part of their life. Only the house owner Radha Mahalakshmi Devi and her husband gave their life span saying 'we have treated him like our son. You may please take as much of our life span as you want. We are ready to die tomorrow morning. We have no desire to live'. Somehow I survived. I don't know how much life span was added. According to Telugu calendar my age is 102 years. According to English calendar I am 100 years old. I don't know how many years more Mother has decided for me. I am n otunder the control of Karma Goddess now. I am not connected with the Goddess of Karma anymore. I have surpassed that stage. Radha Devi is beyond everything. Unless she decides, I cannot leave this world. Unless She decides, I cannot come to this world. So we do not know what she will decide and when! She clearly stated 'He cannot come from earth unless I decide. Nobody can leave that world on their own and come near me'. Such is Radha. This Ashram is Her home! You have taken Her Prasad. You all have kindly come here. I am so happy. I could tell you some good words. I will give you photos of Radha in Ravali. Those who want can take them. "

" 'Before I come to India, I want to test your Nanna. This test is for your Radhika Prasad garu. If he stands the test I shall start immediately, without thinking about expenditure.' 'What is the test?' 'He has never seen me, I have never seen him. He does not know my house here in America which is about 7000 miles away. Since he is all pervading, if he really possesses the effect of mantra and the power, as a sample, my pain should be controlled for one hour. I must totally be relieved from pain. If he can do this, I will certainly come there'. This happened! I did not see the person. I did not go to America. I don't know his house. Though all these are not known, due to the power of Her mantra and Her all-pervading nature; She decided and his pain reduced. When I asked 'Are you in pain?' he said, 'No, there is no pain. I am coming. To India.' He stayed near me for 41 days. He was totally cured. I told him one night that his pain would permanently vanish the next night. It happened in the same way. He came here from America and is presently in Puri Jagannath on some work. He will return in 2-3 days. "

" 'Gopal had a dream one night. A sage appeared in his dream and said, 'if you wish that your daughter must gain eye sight you must visit a yogi. Only he can help you'. His daughter lost her eye sight when she had an attack of small pox. Many reputed doctors in Chennai declared that there were no chances that she could ever see again. That case was so complicated. Then Gopal wrote a letter to me asking about the Yogi. He wanted to send his wife and daughter near that Yogi. "

" I did not want to reveal my name. There was a postman by name Yogananda. I replied to him saying that there is one Yogi here. I told the postman to play a drama. He agreed. I sent him to Gopal. Gopal offered the postman fruits and fell at his feet. Yogananda was perturbed and asked, why he was behaving like that as he was ignorant about Gopal's problem. When he came to know the whole story, he said, 'Oh, only he can do everything. I am nobody, I can do nothing I am just a postman'. Then Gopal came to me and said 'You are an actor!' I quipped 'Yes. I am enacting dramas since a long time; not today only. This is one drama. So what is your problem? The girl was brought near me and she regained sight in both the eyes. "

" Yes. I was in Venkatagiri for four years. "

" Yes. "

" My daughter, Kusuma's necklace was lost. Everybody said, 'you cannot find it. If you lose anything in Venkatagiri, you cant get it. There are cruel, rough people in this area who do not hesitate to even kill someone if he protests against him. So nobody will complain against them. At such a time, a sorcerer came to me. He was well versed with a strange knowledge - he would put paper in water and any matter of interest would be written on it. This method was unheard of and unseen till then! Anyway, at the end of the strange leela, I could get the necklace back. Who was responsible for this? Gnyana Prasunamba! The sorcerer was a disciple of the Mother. I went to the temple, had her darshan and prayed, 'you are so great. I desire to have your darshan in the cosmic worlds'. She then granted me 'Mantra'. I did severe penance in solitude, wearing only a loin cloth; not eating at night and not living with the family. I sent my family away that time. "

" My daughter, Kusuma's necklace was lost. Everybody said, 'you cannot find it. If you lose anything in Venkatagiri, you cant get it. There are cruel, rough people in this area who do not hesitate to even kill someone if he protests against him. So nobody will complain against them. At such a time, a sorcerer came to me. He was well versed with a strange knowledge - he would put paper in water and any matter of interest would be written on it. This method was unheard of and unseen till then! Anyway, at the end of the strange leela, I could get the necklace back. Who was responsible for this? Gnyana Prasunamba! The sorcerer was a disciple of the Mother. I went to the temple, had her darshan and prayed, 'you are so great. I desire to have your darshan in the cosmic worlds'. She then granted me 'Mantra'. I did severe penance in solitude, wearing only a loin cloth; not eating at night and not living with the family. I sent my family away that time. "

" I was the acting officer of a second district at that time. So I was working for both the districts about two years before.... "

" Early morning, at 4 O' clock, I was sitting in this very chair. I won't use cot, I won't use bed. I am using this chair for last 50 years. I pray and do dhyana in this chair only. When I was sleeping like this, a bright light shone ... I woke up and saw a little girl aged 9 years, She was very beautiful. I saluted the divine form with folded hands and said, 'Mother, who are you? What is the purpose of your visit?' she replied, 'I am a village girl. There is a temple on top of that hill. I belong to that temple. I am known as Kanakadurga'. "

" 'You are such a great Goddess. I am an ordinary, small man. How did you come here Mother? What do you need from me? "

" 'There is a Goddess who is much greater than me. She is Radhaji. I am Her servant. She has many people serving Her. She said, 'Durgaji, you go near that boy. He must come near me. (I am a boy in their sight) grant him Shadakshari Mantra'. "

" No human being granted me the Shadakshari Mantra. It is such a great and valuable mantra. It is difficult to define its greatness and divinity. So big, so nice, so excellent! Durga Devi initiated this divine Shadakshari Mantra and disappeared. "

" 'That is my hill. You go on the hill top and do penance for 40 days. You must do penance of the mantra. It will benefit you. "

" Radha is above all. I came here because She ordered me. I don't give darshan to ordinary human beings. I came, followed Her orders and left.' "

" That is Radha. We went on the hill top, did penance for 40 days. After that for almost 4-5 years, I continued the penance. "

" One day, while I was sleeping in this chair an illumination appeared. When I opened my eyes, a beautiful girl stood before me. "

" She said, 'you were in Government service for so long. When will you come into my service (in an emotional voice). I replied ' from this very moment. I am entering into your service, nothing else. I had nothing, no family. I was district eduction officer (DEO) then. I quit the job & left my family. Mother gave Her darshan at 4 P.M. By 6 P.M. I declared, 'My worldy life is over. From now onwards, I am Radhaji's servant.' I took my medical certificate (completed the formalities) and left the place (Anantapur). "

" Radha's power is beyond description. She is the embodiment of Hladini Sakthi. If you want that power, it is better to give up this worldly family. How many people can really do this? There is Maya, (delusion) within you. This Maya will obstruct you saying, 'This is your wife, your child; your wealth, your bank account...; why do you give up all these? Do not go away. Leaving behind the world and family is very difficult. This is called Maha Maya. It may be Trigunatmaka maya (Maya pertaining to the three gunas) or Panchabhowtika Maya (pertaining to the 5 elements). Mother is also Maya, but she is Yoga Maya. Yoga Maya can be attained by Gods and man. The power of Yoga Maya is different. The Maya acts only by Her orders. "

" By 6 A.M., I was no longer the D.E.O. I had to pay 2 months house rent but had no money. This is the truth! I had no money in the bank but had five people to feed. When Mother asked me to come to Her service, I must do so immediately. I never knew where to go! Radhaji called me and I came. "

" All this is recorded in a book -The biography of my life was written by one person. "

" This book was written by a person who is M.A. Ph.D. He is a university Professor. "

" You will reach Mother only if you can satisfy three levels. First, satisfy your mind. Even the Yogis cannot do this. Second Satisfy the society. "

" Third - satisfy Radhaji! You are born only for this purpose. When you can do all the three successfully, you will gain entry ticket. Visa! You will get visa only when you satisfy all the three. You must be successful in each stage and move forward. Now tell me how you can do this. How will you satisfy your mind? I must give you 100/100 marks. She must give you! If you fail, I will tell that you have failed. Secondly, satisfy the society. These points are given by Mother, not any human being. She gave these three conditions to a Mahatma and told him to come near Her when he is able to do all the three! Thirdly, satisfy Mother. How can you satisfy Her? Your answer must be correct. Mother must agree! I must agree. Now think and answer me. "

" Firstly, the mind! You must satisfy your mind. The mind should say 'Very good. I like it. I will not come in your way. You can go forward'. You must tell me when will the mind say so? How should you conduct your life for the mind to say so? At the same time, the mind should not mislead us and drive us downwards on the wrong path. Everyone should point only upwards. Pointing upwards you must be satisfied. How can you point upwards? How can you satisfy your mind?Is this alright? "

" God created each one differently in this world. Just to make your problem more difficult, to make your journey difficult. Nivrithi - the journey upwards is not easy. It is not as simple as going to a hotel and eating a snack. So think and answer me. "

" Don't talk to me now. "

" I will not tell. You must think. Tell me when you have an answer. Then I shall listen. I will not listen to these arguments. These three points have been told by Mother, not by man. I can give you scientific evidence for this. "

" I will not tell. You must think. Tell me when you have an answer. Then I shall listen. I will not listen to these arguments. These three points have been told by Mother, not by man. I can give you scientific evidence for this. "

" Then how do you satisfy Her? Tell me! These three conditions are like three Himalayan Mountains. They are not easy. Even great Yogis have fallen in their attempts to satisfy these three. You must tell me without falling. "

" I don't know, you must answer me. If I say you have failed, then there is no use. "

" All of us should reach there only. Ours journey is to reach Mother. I gave you a question paper today with only three questions. One, how will you satisfy your mind? Second, the after noon paper - How will you satisfy the society. Third question in tomorrow morning's paper - how will you satisfy Mother? "

" Someone may not accept Mother. Your mind may say so, but everybody's mind must accept it. It is not your mind alone. Your mind; his mind.. So the mentality of the mind must agree. It means the whole world should agree and appreciate! "

" I did not say what is satisfactory to everybody; I said mentality. Mentality is general what can satisfy this mindset? There are drunkards, rogues, crooks and nice people too! The mind is like that. The world is made up of such mindset. "

" We all are children of the all-pervading Mother. So we should make our mind as an all pervading mind. It is the inherent nature of the mind to always be ready to go near Mother. We have forgotten this fact. We must realize this truth and retain the mind in its natural state. This is what is meant by 'satisfying the mind'. The mind is full of Ananya Nishta (Single pointedness). Adding the rasa of love to the mind; dedicating it to Radha Devi; keeping it ready to move towards Mother - this is meant by 'satisfying the mind'. Mother's light should glow in our thoughts words and deeds. We must wish for the happiness of those who serve Mother and serve them. We must attempt to divert the society towards Her. The journey made by the devotee in this society in this manner - 'satisfying the society'. "

" We must live with Ananya Nishta towards Mother. We must live our life in such a way that you can say 'My life is reflecting you'. No divine practice can please Mother more than this. Serving the saints and learned is one of the ways to please Mother. Celebrating Mother's festival, writing books about Her, conducting dhyana Yoga classes are also ways to satisfy Mother. "